life update - november 2024
Today marks the start of my third week on the night shift. It's a slow day at work, not much to do. I organized my folders and went on with self-studying, then I enjoyed the egg sandwiches my mom prepared for me. My body is at its better form by the end of last week after an unstable state from the initial fatigue that I expected. My appetite has been the same and most nights I skip the middle meal and eat before and after work. I do miss updating my Strava account and running. I was so happy the last time I was on the field on the first weekend of the month but I haven't been able to come again because of planned outings and the rain and paying off remainders of my sleep debt and... well, more excuses.
Anyway, it's all good and I feel good. I have decided early on to give myself more grace for this month so the work the hours can only be battering my physical health and my body clock. My mental health doesn't need to be added to the mix. I am still hung up on the life-resetting vacation I had with my girlfriend for my birthday and anniversary celebration. I love remembering our time on the beach the most. The sunset, the water and the white sand on our toes. Her hand in mine as we walked. Needless to say, it has been keeping me going. Makes me wonder if life really becomes all about a cycle of working to get a chance to go on a vacation, looking forward to a vacation, then reminiscing the vacation until it is time to go on another one. Maybe it doesn't really need to be a vacation, per se.
I guess I just mean to say working hard and rewarding myself became something I easily got into especially early into the workforce and adulthood in general. I don't necessarily think it as a bad thing! It is an observation how I am spending my time at this point of my life. I am not yearning for a change in this pace as I figure more things out, but if there's anything I've recently found love for it is definitely my ever establishing independence. Though I do think I need to be more comfortable with disappointing people.
I actively work on my perspective for stopping myself from comparing and self-discipline. I don't really know how I'm doing on that but writing it feels like I'm working on it, so I do (self-awareness...?). I find myself daydreaming a lot about doing things. Like writing more things on this blog and coding. What I have done to address that, well, you're now reading this so there's that. On coding, a lot of ideas tumble about my mind on projects to start and the vision I have for each of them but I either find excuses or assumed impossibility for it to materialize. Again, writing this feels like calling myself out so here we are. I did make a board this week after feeling inspired from Herman's post on his way of building things.
So that's me right now. I'm on Arcane brainrot! It could probably provoke me to annoy a person or two if it or anything ever related to it was mentioned within my earshot. I also have to share that more train stops were added to our rails this week and that made me hopeful for my country for a second. For the next post, it's going to be Arcane Act 3 predictions or my newfound habit of modern wayfinding in the city.
Until then, have fun!