log #002: sentences for today
I successfully got out of bed today to go for a morning run, only to be 9 minutes into it that it started to rain.
The strong gust of winds before feeling those thin droplets of water from the sky, I didn't know would make me feel so free and youthful and so connected with both the earth and my body.
I barely slept the night before, from thinking too much about the run or work or just still recovering from the all-nighters in the past month.
Speaking of, work was okay and had more time than usual so I was able to cook - but I have a lot of responsibilities this month, since I was tasked to organize an event for Pride.
I have pictures of me and my girlfriend on my desk and I am essentially a social butterfly, which might have swayed the leads' decision to have me lead this thing that will be at least a three-week affair, from different activities, prep, rehearsals, etc. etc.
It's my first time being on the forefront of anything like this.
I am scared, but also strangely feeling powerful.
I love my community and my job actually takes DEI quite seriously, but having this role I know has give me anxiety more than I have expected.
I cannot wait for it to be over.
I just want to chill, like anyone else, but now I have been given this position, I know it also pains me to perform underwhelmingly.
I don't like half-assed work.
I never have.
I always seem to try too hard.
It is okay, though, because it is one thing about myself that has made me very efficient in many aspects of my life.
I don't like ever saying that something or anything is a waste of time.
Like when I chop my tomatoes for it to be mixed with a salted egg sort of salad - I know I could have removed the membrane in the middle in a faster way, but, it is also okay for me to take my time, removing each membrane at every chopped part.
It seems I have a lot of time in this way, see, which I actually feel like I do.
I had my coke today as my reward for the run and drank that bottle slowly, too.
I took naps here and there, and in the evening we reheated ate the chicken mushroom dish I cooked in the morning.
r has been a dear, as I fell asleep on her shoulder right after after-dinner, and she insisted that she do the chores from there and proceeded to exclude me.
I took my time again, cleaning my work badge, making sure I have everything for the office day tomorrow and then preparing the bed.
I so wanted to watch another episode of The Devil's Plan, but I guess I do not have the time for that, waiting for the stream to load, our wifi I think was having a hard time with the rain.
I do have taken my time to write this.
So we know it is real despite this format of spewing sentences and sentences and sentences in whitespace partitions looks like it was written by anyone other than a human.
I didn't know it'd be easier to write like this, sentence per sentence.
I'm sleepy!
02 Jun, 2025