log #001: the first day of june
Me and r planned to run this morning, but pushed it back tomorrow because we found out there's going to be a big fun run on the route we usually take. I haven't run that much this month because of the night shift, maybe only once on the first week, because (1) I didn't have a solid plan what I'd do with my running habit now that the hours have changed and that (2) I am just so averse with the thought of running that isn't on the morning and all the cars in the world somehow find themselves here along Taft. I've tried it once. There is so much smoke.
Anyway, it is what it is! This is only one aspect of my life that hit a wall this May. Now I seem to be in the headspace of starting a journey where I get my life back. Like I went to war or something. It's June now, which means I'm going to be on the day shift again in the next few months, it's pride month and there is a new longing in the way I'm thinking about the 6AM sun while my heart is pounding 190 beats per minute and just me bouncing on the pavement. I missed it, but I also know it's still going to be a battle for a few minutes that I try to get out of bed tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Today, I still woke up early like my brain didn't get the memo on the run taking a raincheck. I tried to sleep again, but failed, so I finished reading The Safekeep. I stayed in the bed until 8 or so when r woke up and after getting up I went out to take a walk to the market to buy ingredients for pork sinigang, the dish of the day.
Have I ever mentioned that I don't have a fridge, yet? It's not something I want to be broadcasted about myself, but I'll get there, and with prices and logistics and how I know I'm not really looking for us to stay here in this apartment in the next year at the latest, I don't feel it such a necessity to buy at this moment. So, all my ingredients I acquire by taking that walk to the market and buying from that butcher and veggies shop. I only cook for me and r of course, which makes it all alright.
I tried a different sinigang mix for the first time, the with Gabi variant. I've put enough and I really liked the taste of the soup this time. After lunch, I ate an orange and sunflower seeds, then after that, I really didn't have anything planned out for today but to write this and do my budget for the month. So. I took a nap! The weather has been nicer with the clouds in the past few days. It's something that truly improves my quality of sleep.
When I woke up, me and r went over a list we saw on her X feed about possible topics to have deep talks with your partner. We went on answering a couple of them:
- What do you appreciate most about our relationship?
- What is the thing you fear the most about our relationship
- What are you most worried about?
- What is the biggest lesson you've learned from each other?
It was nice hearing our answers and letting myself think and ponder about us. My biggest fear are accidents and unprecedented events. The biggest lesson I've ever learned from her is the value of hard work and setting a vision of what you want from your life. You already know then, the effect of that is the existence of this very blog and both asking more of myself and showing up for myself.
On the evening, I reheated the sinigang and we watched 2 episodes of Family Feud (the Filipino version). I ate my sunflower seeds again and I gave the sweeter orange for r to eat.
I still haven't done the budget, so I'm doing that now after this and that is my day! This is my first log. Remember what I said, I'm trying to gain my life back so that is the birth of this series. I didn't realize it had been so easy to tell a story about what happened with my day. I missed it, too.
01 Jun, 2025